I Had A Blog

I HADABLOG

I had a blog. I did, and I loved it. I loved writing in it, taking pictures and edit them for it. Then I’m not sure what happened…

I started working, while I still had to study for my last exam, and it was pretty exhausting. But I kept thinking “one of these days I will take a moment for myself and write a new post on my blog“, at least to tell everyone that I was still alive.

At the end of August I finally did my exam, but just after that I moved in with my boyfriend (yes, big news right here!) and that took a lot of my time and efforts, too.

Now it’s been a few weeks, and I have to admit that, even if I’m pretty tired most of the time when I’m home, I had some free time. And I thought a lot about writing this post… But the more I waited, the more difficult it became.

Right now I’m not even sure that someone will actually read this words. I’m pretty sure that after more than 100 days without a single blog post, most of my few readers probably left. And if you are still here, well… I’m really grateful, so thank you!

It’s a bit hard for me to write these words here, in this place that used to be my beloved blog. It’s hard because I really want to start blogging again. To be honest, I need it. But the thing is, I’m not sure what I want to be blogging about.

Everywhere I see inspiring blog post saying that to be a successful blog you have to have a focus, a main topic. Now, I’m not saying that I want to become a successful blogger – that was never the goal, even if of course it would be nice – but they sure have a point, and this made me think. What’s the focus of my blog? Do I even have one?

Well, it’s upsetting that I don’t know. The thing is that even in my life, I always wanted to do a lot of things, and I change my passions pretty often. There are a few that are always present, like singing  and photography. I actually tried to make this entire blog about photography, but after I while I got bored and I felt the need of writing about something else, too. I called myself a lifestyle blogger, without wanting to realize that it was still a generic definition.

I know I’d like to write about self-improvement, but am I good at it? I’m not sure. I love to read blogging advice, but I feel catastrophic with my blog most of the time, so that’s not probably a good idea.

Since lately I’ve been working with kids, I even thought about changing everything and focus about craft and activities to do with kids. The thing is, once again I don’t know if I would be able to stick with it and if I’d had the time actually create those things.

So, as you can see if you’re still reading, which I doubt (yes, I’m not being self-confident right now), I’m drowning in an ocean of if and buts. I realize I still have a lot of thinking to do about this and if you want to help me with some advice, you are all more than welcome.

I promise (mostly to myself) I’ll do my best to keep you updated about all this mess, and to try to finally find a way out of it.